Death

Nobody out there wants to die early right?? As I know everyone out there are afraid of death. But why do I feel like its better to die earlier than to live a stressful life?? I feel that this is an awfully weird and its a thought that no one sane wants to have. Am I sane?? Or am I insane?? I wish that the answers would just fall from the sky, I'm having enough trouble at the moment. But I think that I should clear it all up and start anew. Should I?? Or should I not?? What I do not understand at all is, why is it so hard to be loved?? Is it really that hard as I experienced?? Or is it just an obstacle that I have to go through before I really get something that I wanted?? I hate being in this kind of situation. Choices choices and more choices. I HATE IT!! I wish that death comes to me when I'm finished with everything in this world. But I guess us humans do not have much of a choice do we?? We can't have everything the way we want it. But still......