Many unfortunate events have befallen my family lately and it has cost my family the most precious thing that I treasure most. The joy and laughter that once was in this family has been lost.
I definately do no like the presence of unhappiness. Being in a broken family. I wish upon the stars every night that things would go back to its normal state. I thought that I could turn my back on that event that has happened. But, NO. I couldn't. I'm forced to face my family that is now broken on the inside. It might look normal, happy, and cheery on the outside. But that is all a lie. Everything has been a lie in my life recently. I cannot seem to shake these thoughts out of my mind. Its wearing me down from the inside.
I reminisce on the times when we would laugh together. I missed those days, but yet. It can never come back. Or can it?? I question myself everyday if my family would ever return to the state it once was. I really really missed the time that we shared joys and laughter together. I really do. I cannot seem to smile at home anymore. Is there something or someone who could restore it back to the once happy moment it was????
Being at home has never been so depressing. I used to come back home to see smiles from both my parents or maybe even both of them shouting at me for me being home late. But everything has changed. My HOME is now more silent than a graveyard would be. Its depressing really. I question myself; "Would I be the one that can bring everything back to where it once was?" but, I cannot seem to forget the unfortunate events that has happened at home. WHY!? I'm really confused. WHY can't everything be back the way it was!?!?!!!
My HOME, used to be a somewhat merry place. It might be noisy and annoying at times. But I really miss those moments where my family was together. Now, coming home seeing mom in her room, and dad in the hall. There's nothing to talk about anymore. I regret some decisions that I have made. Maybe I was a little bit too harsh on deciding that day. I have started to hate staying at home recently. I wish to forget everything that has once happened!!
I'm tired....I'm really tired just by seeing my family from once a joyful and cheery one become one that I never wished to see or experience. I'm breaking down from the inside. Why this mental torture? Is this what you would call a family?
Every person has something they treasure. My treasure? The people I love and cherish.
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