How Much Can I Take?

The above has already said it, Hou Much Can I Take from all the shyt that I'm facing in this world. God has treated me really "KINDLY" by giving me all sorts of problems to face in 1 time. I don't know which one I should face first. I really don't know. Everyone involved in all the problems are everyone who are most important and dear to me.

First of all, was my relationship where my baby has ignored/avoid me for the past one month with the excuse of saying that she doesn't feel like text-ing and answering calls. But I truly believe that she did answer calls from other people. Just not my calls. Its bringing its toll on me. Its affecting me mentally, I can't sleep well due to the nightmares that I have that involves her. I can't concentrate on my studies because all I think of is what did I do wrong that made her do such a thing to me. Worst of all is, I heard from her sis that "She doesn't feel like having a boyfriend at the moment". Guess how heartbroken, how hurtful, how devastated I was upon hearing such a thing. I have talked to alot of people, asked for alot of opinions. All of them insisted that I should let go of her as she is not treating me the way I should be treated. But I believe that in a relationship, never think about getting anything in return. I always give, I try my best to give. But I guess I wasn't doing good enough. I love her deeply, but does she appreciates me? All I ask for is to be appreciated and loved. I guess that was too much to ask from her. I'm really disappointed in myself for being unable to make her feel loved.

Lately, a new problem arised. My mom and dad are having problems. Problem that dad himself doesnt know what happened. I wonder if dad know about it and acts as if nothing happened or what? I don't know. I really don't know what to do with my life anymore. I'm really hoping that something would just come out of nowhere and kill me. I'm tired of all these. God, please stop torturing me with all these mental problems. I can't take it anymore. I am really wearing down. I do not feel human inside anymore. Please, Please, Please, PLEASE!!!! Just end my life if you feel like it.