Dillema AGAIN!?

Heyy guys. This time I'm in another dillema AGAIN!?. Yea, I'm starting to think that college with all those crap such as marketing and all is not my thing. I can see many of the guys doin better than me. Maybe I'm just lazy or somethin I dunno...But I do not see any potential in myself doing these subjects. I feel that I am starting to lose interest in such things. Maybe its just coz I can't cope up like my mates or maybe I'm just lazy so I can't do as well as they are. Who knows??

I'm feelin tired of all these shit happenin in my life, the accidents, the stress created and given to myself, the misery that I feel, the disappointments that I've faced, all the shit that I am experiencing lately. Maybe its just a bad time for me now. Should I just let go of everything? Hold on?? Or find a new calling??

I like cooking. Tasting, trying out new stuff with food and play around with flavours. But I just can't stand the heat in the kitchen. Funny huh?

What I feel is, I like grooming. I like making ppl look good. I like looking good. I like playing with hair, colours, styles. I like these kinda stuff. All rounded it seems that I am interested with hairstyling. But I am not sure if it is just an illusion or what? I really do not know. I like music, I like drumming to Rock songs such as those from Jet, Maroon 5, Hoobastank, Blink 182 (although they have disbanded), Click 5, The All American Rejects, and Avril. Some of it are heavy some are light, but they are fun to drum along to.

I'm really wondering. WHAT IS MY CALLING???!?