Lost Faith In Studying.

I had exams since this morn 10am till now, its now 4.04pm. There is still another hour before my colleagues finish the exam, it is the final exam for this trimester/semester. Whatever they call it.

Its no one's fault to be blamed. It is all because of ME. The problem always boils down to ME. I have lost faith in myself for studying in business or anything related to business. I'm now wondering and questioning myself if I am the type that is suitable to study in this kind of course. Am I talented?? There is no such thing as talent in studying I believe. I think I am just LAZY. DAMN FUCKING LAZY. Or maybe I just can't get the things I want into my damn head. Am I that poor? Am I that useless?? I am wasting my parents MONEY!!!

I really do not like this feeling at all. I hate this. I hate ME!!! Actually I've never ever liked studying the business courses. I much prefer grooming. I think I am useless in this subject course or whatever. Should I give it another try and do my best in the coming subjects?? Or should I just quit? I feel damn emo now. Freaking mixed emotions of anger, hate, disappointment...on MYSELF.

I am really wondering if I am supposed to continue or not??Alot of people thinks that I am MARKETING material. But I never thought that I was at all. From myself, by looking into a mirror, I can see that I like to look good. I've never had a doubt about that. Always wanting a nice haircut and all. Even have a few hair styling products. I've never thought of studying marketing or anything like that before. Although I know that it can make alot of greens. But can I really cope with it??

AM I REALLY MARKETING MATERIAL???????????