Lately, it seems that I cannot keep up with my studies at all. It just seems like I'm not interested in my studies anymore. Maybe its just the fact that all my colleagues have graduated and I seem to be the only one left with studying. I hate it this way. I feel lost recently. Lost and clouded in a cloud of darkness shrouding my judgement and feelings. Though I may look cheerful and laid back, the fact that I'm stressed, tensed, and not knowing what I want in life is masked behind the cheerful and laid back smile of mine.
What is goals? What is life? What is meaning? Meaning of life = goals? or meaning of goals = life? or goals = meaning of life? or life = meaning of goals? I guess I really need time away from everything. I wish to be in a secluded area where I can really think of what I want in life. Is this question really that hard to be answered?
I feel heavy. I feel like I cannot stand on my own two feet anymore. Maybe I should just kneel down on life and let it judge me. Or should I continue fighting my inner self that wants to give up on everything? Life is a rollercoaster, it has its ups and downs. But what happens when the ride is over?
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